Friday, 05 December 2008

• Losing balance..

  It's going to sound so crazy, I know..

  I really dislike being busy.. with so many things on hand that I really don't want to do..

  On the other hand, I hate it even more to feel lonely.. But it's not like I have no one around me.. There are.. tons.. but somehow it's the emptiness which creeps in at the very end of the day.. it's like that just so much.. or too much that is happening around me for me to catch or savour it.. then it's gone..

  Maybe it's him..

  That he's not around.. That I had been so busy that I didn't realised we haven't been spending much time together..

  And now that I am free, he just happen to be busy.. It's like the schedule always clashes.. 

  I'm selfish I guess.. Wanting everything to myself.. I want the best of the whole world.. Which now seems to be too much for me to hold..

  And once again, I'm back to this state.. Where nothing seems right..

  Right about now, I can just feel myself shutting myself out..

  Suddenly, all the excitement of the holiday plans just seems to have fade away..

  -i'm sorry-

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