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Thursday, 11 December 2008

Friday, 05 December 2008

  • Losing balance..

    It's going to sound so crazy, I know..

    I really dislike being busy.. with so many things on hand that I really don't want to do..

    On the other hand, I hate it even more to feel lonely.. But it's not like I have no one around me.. There are.. tons.. but somehow it's the emptiness which creeps in at the very end of the day.. it's like that just so much.. or too much that is happening around me for me to catch or savour it.. then it's gone..

    Maybe it's him..

    That he's not around.. That I had been so busy that I didn't realised we haven't been spending much time together..

    And now that I am free, he just happen to be busy.. It's like the schedule always clashes.. 

    I'm selfish I guess.. Wanting everything to myself.. I want the best of the whole world.. Which now seems to be too much for me to hold..

    And once again, I'm back to this state.. Where nothing seems right..

    Right about now, I can just feel myself shutting myself out..

    Suddenly, all the excitement of the holiday plans just seems to have fade away..

    -i'm sorry-

Thursday, 27 November 2008

  • it's not about the failure..

    there was so many times in our lives that we wish for things to be much easier..

    try thinking of situations when you actually wish for things to be harder..

    needless to say almost everyone with a right mind wouldn't dare ask for..

    there are so many times when i wish life would be much easier..

    - to have less/nothing to worry about..

    - to have less things to do..

    - to have less to study for the exams and tests..

    - to have easier exams, tests and projects..

    and there are so much more things that we all wished could have been easier or less for us.. but to think again, how many times do we appreciate the good that all these actually bring us?

    To have more to worry means to have been able to develop skills to deal with them..

    To have more things to do would mean that we are not useless but capable beings..

    To have more to study means at least we have the chance to receive education..

    To have difficult exams means to be able to train ourselves into doing things better..

    does simpler/easier life means better?

    what if we do not have the chance to learn? what if we are not given the ability to carry out daily tasks? what if we are not given a chance to receive education? what if we do not have the capability to even handle the simplest exams, test or projects?

    Are we going to blame the world? Blame God?

    Who are we to blame? But ourselves?

    For being too greedy..

    For asking/wanting too much..

    For not putting in enough effort..

    For not being able to withstand the hardships..

    It is often ourselves who blame others of our inability.. To find a scapegoat for our wrong doings..

    Wouldn't it be much better if you learn from our mistakes instead? To learn and grow from each and everything that we do.. To take every failure as a valuable lesson..

    Perhaps, it is only then will we be able to truly enjoy this life journey.. To take back what had been installed for us..

    Perhaps, it is only then will the world seems to be a better place..

    -it's the lesson learnt-

Sunday, 16 November 2008

  • And you..

    All that which makes me smile..

    the simple back rub after hours of work..

    the help lended with no complains..

    the smile gave despite my constant grumblin..

    the silly reactions given when i play..

    the look of helplessness when i tease..

    the simple request asked everyday without fail..

    the playin along with my silly games..

    the tolerance of my weird behaviors and moodswings..

    the understanding showered during my really busy times..

    All these and so much more makes me happy everyday..

    That's nothing more that i could ever ask for..

    Life's simple and good.. =]

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    -my joy, my love-

Saturday, 15 November 2008

  • Getting high!

    I so high from my pratice session just now.. So in love with everything.. All the hardwork and effort all of us had put in.. It's all starting to show! Hope we'll do really well for our finals.. I'm darn proud of what we had achieved today.. =DD

    Exams are round the corner.. I have exactly 1 week more to the first paper.. oh dear.. It's always a bad time.. Cos i'll be so tired.. and stressed out of cos! It's a really tough period for me.. especially for this semester where all my core modules are lumped together.. Ya i know.. serve me right for taking so many level 3000 mods.. =((

    Anyways, i'm really lookin forward to the end of exams.. Can't wait till the hols come.. then i'll have a great time.. wanna get a part-time job to earn some cash for next year's trip.. Go on a short trip.. Have a great time celebrating Christmas and New Year.. Party with my beloved clan.. Meet-ups with my "old" friends.. that's just so much to do during the short 1 month hols.. Am so excited! =DD

    Alrighty, once again.. i'm lazy and tired.. so i'll end here.. and nope.. the lazy bum hasn't send me any photos yet.. so till the next time.. take care friends!

renilinas

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